It’s like a storm out there. Today was meant to be my day off. Got called into work this afternoon till 8 tonight. Everything would be different if it was a shop that I absolutely adored and would be so passionate about. I’d be like “Hell yeah! Of course I’ll come in today!” But it’s not and I don’t like it and everyone actually wants me to get out this place and find somewhere better. Easier said than done.
Work work work work work. Never have time to do anything. Never free to do things with friends when they plan things. Why did I say I wanted a job again?
I’ve been working more and more hours so I’ve been finding it hard to make time for tumblr. I’m on half days but either my mornings or late afternoons have to be made doing work searches and recording it. Stupid.
Today was my first day off this week so once I’d sorted my job center appointment this morning, I spent it shopping with my Mum, helping out at Barnardo’s and shopping some more myself before finally walking home at 5 o clock.
I can feel myself appreciating my days off a lot more now. Especially in this Christmas period.
I’m glad I can still be at Barnardo’s. It helps remind me why I love working in retail. It’s as if being there today has given me a slap across the face telling me to snap out of it. I’m now a little more happy about being in “real” work tomorrow.
I know it was only my third day today but I’m just really hating my job at the moment. My second day went a little better. No tears for me yaaaaaaaay. But today was just meh. I feel like….it’s just too much for me to handle. It’s putting me off retail when I was getting really excited about it all. It’s not what I thought it would be. I feel like I’ve gone to the wrong place to start but I didn’t really have a choice because I need this job and it was the only hope I had for one.
I finally got to “tidy up” so to speak, which is what I love doing when dealing with clothes especially, and generally making everything look nice and appealing while still being called to the tills. So at least I wasn’t just stuck on the till on my own.
But that’s what I hate about it. I feel alone. Sort of isolated. I still haven’t got my head around the phones when I feel like I should and it’s the main call for help but then I realise, It’s only my 3rd day!!
While taking a wonder when I got there, I managed to find the sheet which tells you where you’re registered for the day. I was all like “yaaaaaaay something different to do!” And was excited about somebody training me on today’s new jobs. But that wasn’t really the case at all. For some reason I was expected to know what I was doing? I sort of just went down to the cash desk while it was busy and then after 3 customers, it was quiet again but I wasn’t stationed at the cash desk so I had to find another associate to sort of say “excuse me this is like only my third day and apparently it says I’m on “maintenance”, I’ve only been on cashiering so far, could you sort of show me what I should be doing?”
Now I know really you should sort of use that initiative to work things out for yourself but seriously, can you imagine if it was someone who has no fucking clue? On their third day? When they hadn’t worked in that section yet? Seriously? I just would expect a little more help and support in this whole “training” stage. It’s….shit. Thankfully the ones that showed me exactly what to do were really nice about it and didn’t make me feel like an idiot who should already know it.
I don’t feel like I’m being trained. I feel like I’m just being thrown right in there, trying to work it out myself as I go.